Old Friend

Tonight I will see an old friend.

I am uncertain.

I am guarded.

I am scared.

All I can do is pray.

Pray for wisdom.

Pray that my words will be healing to us.

Pray that my heart will be safe.

Pray that my body language will be welcoming.

Will I be numb, or will I cry?

Will I talk too much or will I be silent?

Will I want to condem (angry) or will I finally figure out how to accept (love without shaming)?

Almost a year is a very long time. It is a very long time to have not really connect with someone you love. It is a very long time to have not had your 'best friend'. Best friends, what a in interesting concept. Do we chose them? Maybe neither person chooses. Maybe it just IS.

I wish I could choose. I would have chosen to let go a long time ago.

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering. Romans 8:1-3

Like I said; all I can is pray.

Pray for wisdom.